[ The problem is, Jamie once begged a man to kill him, because he didn't want to keep going. Not without Claire.

He can't exactly say that, though. So, he tries to think of a better answer than I couldn't find a way to die, his face set neutrally. ]

Was no' easy. But once the prison was shut down and life became a seven-year debt to work off, I could finally see an end to it all. Before that...I dinna ken that I was doing much more than waking up each day and making a choice.

[ It's not pretty. But it is the truth. ]